Feeding My Spirit, Nurturing My Soul

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So much has happened over the course of the past couple months. My life has shifted dramatically, and I feel that I am on a better, more fulfilling course. When last I wrote here, I believe that I was doing some substitute teaching and looking for more full-time employment that would nurture my soul and feed my spirit. I found that, in spades.

When I lost my last job, I made a list of the things that I wanted for my next job. I sat down and made a list of the things that I love to do, then tried to paint them within a bigger picture. This is the list that I came up with.

  1. I love to teach. I feel that to teach well, you must constantly be learning, and learning is of utmost importanceBee Lovin' to me.
  2. Service is a part of who I am. I do not feel right spending most of my time doing activities that do not in some way contribute to the betterment of the world.
  3. Doing the same repetitive task over and over kills me. I need variety in my life. Every day.
  4. Sitting in one spot all day long was killing me. I need to be more physically active.

After making that list, I tried relentlessly to find the “Perfect” job, but it turns out, it found me, which is another story in and of itself.

Anyway, now I work for a non-profit, leading the education department and setting into order the workings of the organization. That organization’s mission is to save the honey bee. I teach people about bees and their importance to our lives. I am in service to a greater cause. Each day is new, and I get to wear many hats.  Plus, I work outside with bees about 1/3 of time. Goddess is Good!

Don’t Hate – Collaborate!

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In one of my last posts here, I was talking about having lost my job, and the wonderful opportunities that had afforded me. Since losing our family’s main source of income, I have been completely restructuring my life. I have started a couple of new business ventures, and begun steering my Ship in only directions that I feed my soul.  I have been dancing more, singing more, teaching regularly, and filling my world with Art. Sadly, that is not all that has been part of my life…..

Of late, I have found that many of my “friends” do not wish for my success. People that I once embraced have betrayed me in ways I could not have expected. I know some of this is because I am in the “public eye” more, as public as my niche in my city is…. but in all honesty, such behavior is never okay. Allow me to elaborate.

A dear friend and I recently started a bi-monthly art market, much like a Farmer’s Market. We have different vendors come out each time and showcase their wares as folks are milling about having their coffee and donuts in the food trailer on premise. We started this and, of course, told all of our friends to come and showcase their wares, as their success is part of why we are doing this. Many friends took us up on the offer. However, a couple decided to copy our model (nearly word for word) and start their own market. To add insult to injury, they invited all of our mutual friends to take part, but did not invite us. *tsk, tsk, tsk*

Another example: I was working on a new business venture with that same dear friend. (We really are trying to make our lives all about doing what we love.) She added me into her cooperative venture. Not even a week in, she received some uncomplimentary feedback, before we had even begun to do business. The naysayer , a mutual friend, was slinging bad juju before we had opened our business, and while we were getting our duckies in a row, if you will. Would it not have been better to ask question or offer input, rather than making assumptions and talking smack?

I know that there will always be haters, especially when one is being innovative and taking charge of their environment, but the saddest part for me is that I called these folks friends, and they were part of my larger spiritual community.  I had thought better of them. Sad.

Anyway, I would like to say that I have learned a lesson from this, but I cannot. Just know, I have raised my shields, put up my boundaries, and presented them with a mirror. Shame on the witch that seeks to harm another Witch.

 

Great Release Program – Close to Wrapping Up

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So, I have not been posting a much about this journey. The holidays were truly busy for me, even though technically I have been unemployed. I haven’t stopped to sit down and write, though I have been keeping up with this wonderful program. I would say it is a highlight in my December, for certain!

One thing that I noticed about this project, my family has fallen into step with me. They have seen my efforts, and joined in. We have rearranged the house and eliminated a great deal of clutter. There is still some to go, as we never did tackle the cottage, but I feel like momentum has picked up, and we will continue even after December.

My one regret…. I didn’t take any “Before” and “After” photos.

Next year.

Great Release Program – Day 5

Yesterday was Day 5, and being employed I have been able to spend a lot more time on this that most, perhaps. As such, I was able to complete a good portion of the work. One area of my house that I have been avoiding, however, is the room that my two youngest share. I know this one will be the biggest “project,” but also the greatest boon once finished. I am going to focus on that room today.

Yesterday I organized my office. This is really important now that I am making a go of my herbal business. If interested, you can read more about that Here. Today, I shall work to attract success and abundance on this path.

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Great Release Program – Day 4

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So, I did get started on this a couple of days ago, but I did not have the opportunity to blog about it. As such, this post shall be a bit of “catch up.”

If you are interested in the Great Release Program, I don’t believe it is too late to get started. You can find out more by going to Silver Ravenwolf’s Blog.

Day 1 – Walk around the house and take note of all the areas that you would like to clean and what you would like to accomplish. Turns out there is a rather lengthy list of bits that I would like to tackle during this program. I spent my three minutes of “speed cleaning” clearing off the dinner table, which tends to be a catch all for our papers.

Day 2 – I set up a special spot where my old work desk was. I figured that this was a perfect spot for putting my altar, since I had released the old job and am moving toward following my true path.  I made my nine wishes, only one of which was for myself (surprisingly.) ;-) I found it very difficult to get rid of 9 things, but I had to keep telling myself “This is for the release, and for my wishes,” and eventually I got it done, along with my 5 minute speed cleaning exercise.

Day 3 – I found it difficult to go through my house completely and remove all the clutter. After a time I got so sick of the shtuff that I ended up tossing more than I expected. and excellent release!

Day 4 – I did not do well on this day. I hate dusting because I have so many knick knacks. I did as much as I could, but I focused on the rooms in the front of the house. The positive side of this is that I am starting to really feel the the Release. I found myself emotional in that I was letting go of old emotions.

Releasing and Letting Go

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Over the last couple of weeks, since the workshop with Maestra Laura, I feel that I have been transforming. Much like the caterpillar, I have been liquefying in my cocoon, re-sculpting my DNA, and preparing to emerge from my chrysalis a wholly new being.

transformation, butterfly, emergingMany of my old paradigms and beliefs have been shattered, and I am grateful for new insights.  To move the process along, and to bring closure to my past, allowing room for these new influences and growth to emerge, I did a powerful ritual yesterday. I won’t go into details, but know that it involved blood, tears, fire, and a great deal of releasing. I feel stronger and definitely changed.

Hello Universe. I am ready… Bring it!!

Keepin’ It Real

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Remember in the last post how I talked about the workshop with the Curandera? The mojo that was worked during that evening was powerful indeed! See, we did this ritual where we chose what we wanted to release from our lives, and what we desired to gain, and we set that in to motion.

Now, I am would say that I have a bit of ability and talent when it comes to manifestation. I am often surprised at home the Universe actually listens when I ask! This, coupled with a room full of Powerful Women, all working to manifest our own and collective goals….. Raw, Focused Power!

I will not go into exactly what it is that I decided to release and draw in, just know that it had to do with ego and walking my True Path with Wisdom.

Yup……. So, …. I lost my job yesterday, seemingly out of the blue. I mean, I was sitting in the meeting with my boss and shocked! Actually, he seemed a bit at a loss as well. I asked him to give me a list of reasons why they needed to let me go, but he was unable to come up with anything. Weird, right?marshall existential crisis HIMYMIt is true, the job that I was in I often referred to as “soul sucking” and “heartless” and lamented that I was not out making a positive difference in the world. I found myself regularly suffering small existential crises, akin to those of Marshall from How I Met Your Mother. The Fates must have been listening, because Spider Goddess’s web got a makeover!

Since the “break up” I have found that I need less sleep, I am less stressed, and I kinda see the world just a bit differently. Is that even possible? It has only been 36 or so hours, but I actually am a bit excited. I feel like I am the star of a Choose Your Own Adventure novel – “Which exciting career path will she choose. Turn to page 53 if you choose…..”

Curanderismo

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Yesterday I had the rare pleasure to sit in a group of students and learn more about the healing arts of Curanderismo. For those unfamiliar, a Curandera is defined as “a traditional Native American healer or shaman in the United States and in Latin America.”

curandera The Curandera leading the ceremony and teaching all of us was Maestra Laura Alonzo de Franklin, known for her work in New Mexico with the community and with veterans suffering from PTSD. This amazing and beautiful woman took a few hours out of her busy schedule to share with all of us what it means to be a healer.

One of the resounding messages I have been getting recently is that there is no “one” way, all our experiences contribute to who we are our healing abilities. We all have our own story, and have the opportunity to choose what we do with that story, use it for benefit or otherwise.

Another of the messages that I received again last evening was that no certificate or degree will make you a healer. Divine beings are what we were all born to be.  There is so much that I have learned from guides and non-corporeal beings, and it is just as valid as that which I could acquire in a book or program.

I am an academic, and this is part of who I am.  Though I may continue on a PhD course, I would do so because that is what feeds my soul, not for any other reason. Not because I feel it makes my knowledge or learning more legitimate or accepted, but because it is what thrills my soul, to delve ever deeper.

 

 

Spiritually Active

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It has been my desire to be working in more of a spiritual service capacity. My day job is about the furthest thing from spiritual. I work in advertising and it doesn’t appear that much has changed since the era Mad Men is based on.

This past week, I have been blessed to be of service spiritually.

my winding spiritual pathOver the course of the previous seven days I have seen two Reiki clients, regressed a client so she could deal heal some past life traumas, participated in two house blessings, and helped dedicate a medicine wheel. This is the sort of week I wish to have regularly, to feel in service and use my skills and abilities as they were meant to be used.

This week, I will begin teaching private Rune classes and I am most certainly excited about this prospect. I will also have the opportunity to attend an herbal conference and learn from many respected herbalists this weekend. I have been volunteering to assist this effort for a while, and am excited to see it take off!

 

 

 

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